Kaasar. Punong puno ng BOYFRIEND tong blog na to. OH WELL. :))
I just need something or someone to let these thoughts and/or feelings out of my system.
If I'm still the person who posted my previous blogs, well I should be very happy right now because Amos and I are over. Now you may wonder, why? JOKE. I BET NO ONE'S WONDERING WHY. WE'RE BOUND TO BREAK UP. Our relationship was obviously dysfunctional.
Last Monday, while I was stalking him and his lovelife, I found out that he has a girlfriend. Maybe it's practical and excusable because technically, we have been separated since November 2010: 8 months. But in my excuse for not being over him UNTIL NOW, ANONG PETSA NA BTW, we still went out 'til mid February or March, I think? He'd sometimes tell me that he doesn't love me anymore, but I wouldn't believe him because we were still together and were still having fun. I chose to believe that there's nothing wrong. Although I have accepted the fact that I was fooling myself, and that what was happening then was going nowhere but downhill.
It's a stupid thing to think about the past and be all depressed about it, but I can't help it. I can't think of anything but the past, and the what-could-have-beens. I think that's a fairly reasonable thing to do since we had been together for 2 years, and I have already chosen him to be the person to be with for the rest of my life. I was wishing that he'd been thinking the same thing all along, BUT I GUESS I WAS WRONG.
We were happy, we were in love, why couldn't that just be enough for us to be together, FOREVER. He chose me, I chose him, why does the world have to make it complicated. It's as simple as it is.
I HAVE SO MANY WHY QUESTIONS. WHY.
Well, maybe there's something or someone better for me. Maybe I'm meant to live with dogs, and dogs alone =)) I WON'T REALLY KILL MYSELF IF THAT EVER IS TRUE BECAUSE DOGS ARE THE SHIT, THEY'RE THE BEST PET EVER AND THEY ARE FREAKING ADORABLE, EVEN THE PITBULLS. HEHE :)
I wish I could've gotten the clues that this wouldn't last soon enough that you could have not hurt me.
VISIT http://www.paradigma.ru/wonderland/ IT IS AWESOME
I just need something or someone to let these thoughts and/or feelings out of my system.
If I'm still the person who posted my previous blogs, well I should be very happy right now because Amos and I are over. Now you may wonder, why? JOKE. I BET NO ONE'S WONDERING WHY. WE'RE BOUND TO BREAK UP. Our relationship was obviously dysfunctional.
Last Monday, while I was stalking him and his lovelife, I found out that he has a girlfriend. Maybe it's practical and excusable because technically, we have been separated since November 2010: 8 months. But in my excuse for not being over him UNTIL NOW, ANONG PETSA NA BTW, we still went out 'til mid February or March, I think? He'd sometimes tell me that he doesn't love me anymore, but I wouldn't believe him because we were still together and were still having fun. I chose to believe that there's nothing wrong. Although I have accepted the fact that I was fooling myself, and that what was happening then was going nowhere but downhill.
It's a stupid thing to think about the past and be all depressed about it, but I can't help it. I can't think of anything but the past, and the what-could-have-beens. I think that's a fairly reasonable thing to do since we had been together for 2 years, and I have already chosen him to be the person to be with for the rest of my life. I was wishing that he'd been thinking the same thing all along, BUT I GUESS I WAS WRONG.
We were happy, we were in love, why couldn't that just be enough for us to be together, FOREVER. He chose me, I chose him, why does the world have to make it complicated. It's as simple as it is.
I HAVE SO MANY WHY QUESTIONS. WHY.
Well, maybe there's something or someone better for me. Maybe I'm meant to live with dogs, and dogs alone =)) I WON'T REALLY KILL MYSELF IF THAT EVER IS TRUE BECAUSE DOGS ARE THE SHIT, THEY'RE THE BEST PET EVER AND THEY ARE FREAKING ADORABLE, EVEN THE PITBULLS. HEHE :)
I wish I could've gotten the clues that this wouldn't last soon enough that you could have not hurt me.
VISIT http://www.paradigma.ru/wonderland/ IT IS AWESOME
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