As you all know, I'm still not over my ex but I'm almost there :)
So he has this girlfriend, right? And I pity this girlfriend kasi wala siyang clue about who Amos is, and what Amos is capable of doing. From my experience, he can be the sweetest person, but he can also be the worst boyfriend ever. And for the latter part, I know something that can prove that 100%. If you people would know what that is, it will blow your mind, I think.
Being with him for almost 2 years, I have discovered that he can't control his temper, and he's very unpredictable. Maybe I have no right for saying these things, but man, I do.
Maybe Amos just fell out of love months ago, and maybe he loves this new girlfriend very much, but we can't surely say that he'd not just fall out of love again, right?
I really don't want to deny it even to myself, so I'm just going to be honest here. Amos is still the person I really want to be with all of the time for the rest of my life. I still wish for him everytime I have an opportunity to wish for something. And it hurts, it really hurts to know that I was the only one being serious in our relationship then. It's not about what's right and wrong e, it's about the fact that I have accepted and loved him whole-heartedly, and I've already set my mind up that he's the one for me. He's the only one for me.
Maybe someday I'd be reading this entry and I'd be laughing at myself. Maybe my future husband's already searching for me. Maybe I have already met my future husband, but my heart's still broken to accept anyone in. Maybe.
God, it hurts. If I could really just control the world right now, I'd be with him and there would be world peace.
What's happening right now is really just stupid. Really really stupid that I pity myself that I'm in this situation right now.
Why can't I just accept it and move on?!
So he has this girlfriend, right? And I pity this girlfriend kasi wala siyang clue about who Amos is, and what Amos is capable of doing. From my experience, he can be the sweetest person, but he can also be the worst boyfriend ever. And for the latter part, I know something that can prove that 100%. If you people would know what that is, it will blow your mind, I think.
Being with him for almost 2 years, I have discovered that he can't control his temper, and he's very unpredictable. Maybe I have no right for saying these things, but man, I do.
Maybe Amos just fell out of love months ago, and maybe he loves this new girlfriend very much, but we can't surely say that he'd not just fall out of love again, right?
I really don't want to deny it even to myself, so I'm just going to be honest here. Amos is still the person I really want to be with all of the time for the rest of my life. I still wish for him everytime I have an opportunity to wish for something. And it hurts, it really hurts to know that I was the only one being serious in our relationship then. It's not about what's right and wrong e, it's about the fact that I have accepted and loved him whole-heartedly, and I've already set my mind up that he's the one for me. He's the only one for me.
Maybe someday I'd be reading this entry and I'd be laughing at myself. Maybe my future husband's already searching for me. Maybe I have already met my future husband, but my heart's still broken to accept anyone in. Maybe.
God, it hurts. If I could really just control the world right now, I'd be with him and there would be world peace.
What's happening right now is really just stupid. Really really stupid that I pity myself that I'm in this situation right now.
Why can't I just accept it and move on?!
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