It was humiliating to cry in front of strangers. But at least, I can say I just yawned or something. Or I can just, not explain anything to them because they're just strangers. (What :)))
It had been painful. It's only been a day, yet it's as excruciating as two years worth of failure. All I wanted was for you to fight for me, to tell me that you'd still love me no matter how moody I get sometimes. But no, I guess I'm not much of an important person to fight for. I'm not that worth it.
Deja Vu it seems. Only this time, I can stop shit earlier. This time, I'll give my partner a favor and let him go this early. I won't let him suffer with me anymore. I'm a messed up person and I don't want to drag anyone into this hell hole called life.
I love him so much that I have to let go, because I know where this is going. I've been here before. And only more pain is ahead of us. I can't let you go through this. The unbearable pain is too much for a sissy boy like you. I'm sorry I dragged you into this. I'm sorry for loving you this much. I'm sorry I can't take care of you like I promised.
But just know that I'm always here. Whoever may come for you, or for me, I'll always be your best friend.
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