I'm starting to think that I haven't really gotten over Amos. I mean seriously, I can't fully understand what these feelings inside me mean. Maybe it was the same as Amos' when he told me "You'll always have a place in my heart." and all that bullshit. He'll always be special, I guess. He's the first man to make me feel like I'm someone different. That sounds pathetic, doesn't it? That's how I feel anyway. It still stings inside whenever I see another woman beside him: one of the perks of Facebook.. you'll always be thoroughly updated, and it comes in pictures too! -_-"
Do you know that feeling of peace when you're with a certain person? That feeling of being meant to be, like you're supposed to be together and stay that way 'til the end? Well, that's exactly how I feel about him. I've been living in denial of that feeling because I've somehow accepted the fact that we won't be getting back together anytime soon. We have our own lives now. And frankly, I just don't want to feel that sadness and disappointment of not having him, just flow around me anymore. I just want to be happy, you know? I just don't know how to let this one go. I don't know how to handle my feelings when I've been feeling this way for the last 4 years.
Do you know that feeling of peace when you're with a certain person? That feeling of being meant to be, like you're supposed to be together and stay that way 'til the end? Well, that's exactly how I feel about him. I've been living in denial of that feeling because I've somehow accepted the fact that we won't be getting back together anytime soon. We have our own lives now. And frankly, I just don't want to feel that sadness and disappointment of not having him, just flow around me anymore. I just want to be happy, you know? I just don't know how to let this one go. I don't know how to handle my feelings when I've been feeling this way for the last 4 years.
